My boy and his cars

His current love. It entertains for hours on end! I love to watch him play.

Everyday miracles

*I often write posts that I never publish. They just sit in my draft box. Writing is a such a release to me, it is an expression of my heart. Sometimes the things that pour out of my heart are just too personal, or I just don't feel like being that vulnerable with the whole world.

I was talking to a friend recently who is going through a really hard time. Even though her situation is very different then any of my own hardships it brought me back to a time about a year ago when we were struggling. It's not something I really shared with anyone...nothing tragic...but it was hard and it was personal. It was something that God walked us through. And although I am not going to share the details (because they are not important anymore) I felt like it was a good time to share something God showed me during that struggle.

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3/02/09

Miracles.

I have been praying for a miracle. For God to rescue us out of our struggles. Sometimes the darkness has seemed so thick that it threatened to choke me. I cried out to God, and yet He has remained silent... I know He is there, but yet I have felt so alone. I have begged Him to take this away...and yet He remained from what I perceived, unmoving. It's not as if I expect to actually HEAR His voice...but there has been no peace in my heart. I had forgotten what His joy felt like. My soul yearned for Him.

I often think of what King David must have felt. He was pursued by evil men, hated by those around him, spoken badly of behind his back, and many other things. He cried out to God and was totally honest with how he was feeling. Sometimes he felt abandoned. David was bold enough to ask God to rescue him, to give him miracles. Sometimes God said no, or just remained silent.

Last night God reminded me of His everyday miracles that I am taking for granted. My God is bigger than I have given Him credit for.

As you persevere along the path I have prepared for you, depending on My strength to sustain you, expect to see miracles-and you will. Miracles are not always visible to the naked eye, but those who live by faith can see them clearly. Living by faith, rather then sight enables you to see My Glory ~Sara Young (Jesus Calling)

~the gift of laughter. Being able to laugh with the one I love over silly things and mistakes I make.

~watching my children grow right before your eyes. Being able to witness them learn and see their minds begin to blossom.

~The love we feel for one another.

~A roof over our heads.

~Food on the table.

~A heart full of joy and unexplained peace.

These are everyday miracles. The things that can be overlooked. Sometimes I forgot to look for the hand of God in the small things. I pray that He will open my eyes to see the daily miracles that are taking place. My desire is that God would come down take us out of our struggle, but I realize that I have a choice...a choice to surrender. A choice to see that maybe He has a purpose in all of this. A choice to realize that His plans are bigger then my own. A choice to say that even if He never rescues me out of present struggles I can still choose to have peace. I long to see His Glory. So I choose to see it in the everyday. And maybe just maybe the everyday miracles will lead to my "rescue" after all.

Oh the weather outside

We got hit with a storm and the sky dumped about 12 inches of beautiful snow to the ground.

(I put this in my draft box on January 8th when we were home in WI for Christmas break and forgot to post it...oops!)

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I woke up on Friday to this card (and a lovely birthday sign). What a great way to start the day! Not sure if she is implying that I am getting old...but it's good to know I would be missed. :)

It's a...

baby!

No really, just watch the video and see for yourself what this tie breaker baby probably is. :)

After I turned the camera off he finished looking at everything he needed to see, then he went back to try and get a better view of what the gender is. On the second time looking he felt more sure that it was a girl.

I will be going back in soon for another ultrasound, so we will take another peek. But I feel pretty sure at this point that PINK is in the near future. :)

My tiny dancer

Signs of life

17 weeks
a small bump
can you see it
still in my regular clothes
but probably not for long

i felt it
the flutters like a butterfly
so faint and soft
but real

first signs
of growing life
of new reality
a miracle